Last Tuesday I thought I was going to die. I had an asthma attack after work and it happened in my mother's house, trying to visit her after a long absence, and woe, my inhaler's at my wife's house.

It was terrible. I was not terrified at the prospect of dying, except I do recall that I could not breath without my whole frame doubling and twisting in an effort to get air in and out of my gaping mouth. My mother, she was busy watching television in the living room. Her advanced age and semi-deafness must've prevented her from hearing me.

I don't have energy at all to call for help, I was intent on catching my breath.

There were times that I thought my lungs would collapse from trying to squeeze oxygen in, my head was splitting for lack of it, and my chest and stomach muscles ached so severely from trying to breath.

When I thought I was really going to asphyxiate and die from lack of oxygen, I called on Jesus' Name, Our Lord's Name, with every breath I took, such that I pronounced Our Lord's Name as H-he-Sooh-s, He-he-sooh-s.

Hours passed into the night, my muscles ached for trying to sit, back hunched, arms stiffening in supporting my torso, I'm so dizzy that everytime I lain down, my lungs threatened to squeeze itself and quickly I sprung back to sitting position.

I prayed in my heart, still breathing Jesus' Name, I asked, "Is this it, God? Am I to die? I am ready, but how about my children? My wife? Nobody will support them save I? They need a father, Lord, am I to be taken now? Dear God, is this the bargain that we struck? That my daughter be cured and I would die in her place? Thy will be done..."

Hours later, later into the morning, my painful gasps subsided, what remained were the aches in my muscles, intestines, appendix, and my back from the sheer effort in just breathing.

I asked that I'd suffer in my daughter's place, and I have no complaints, but I also believe Jesus saved me, for it was only His Healing I called upon, recalling in my delirium how He healed many of the sick in Israel during His 3 years of ministry.

Forgive me for my blandness although I am grateful for my Lord's cure, but still I feel a bit woozy from the attack. I did not go to work the next day to just recover and wait for my aching torso to slacken a bit.

Thank You God...for every breath I take. Your Mercy is Overflowing. You have allowed this humble servant to live...I am overwhelmed my Lord, I thought I would finally meet you, hold you, ask you the final questions that nagged me since I started to think, about this life, about my purpose, about You, but something held me back, from surrendering, from yielding to the cold darkness creeping on my skin that night...I called and You answered My Lord, My Dear God, My Beautiful God, Yahweh, Yeshua, Alleluia, Lord, My God, Alleluia, Jesus, I believe, Oh MY LOrd, My Lord, My Lord. Amen. Amen. Amen. Christe Eleison. Alleluia. Praised be Your Name, My Lord, My God.

I have written about the Divinity of the Lord Jesus Christ in my entry before Christmas and I have also opined that only reading the Bible with love can we really discover that latent under the mystery of God's revelation, God truly came down from Heaven and "dwelt amongst Us".

Jesus said before His Passion, to his disciples, "I will be with You always" and "Make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the Name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit". The former may be construed as a figurative statement other than a loving intimation of His Nature that only a loving disciple can understand, while the latter may be a fortuitous juxtaposition that has no bearing on the Equality of the Persons named in that Command, or it may be the actual and most direct statement of Jesus of the Triune Nature of the Creator, Fortifier, and the Divine Human. Such is the Beauty of the Bible, that such esoterica be worded in this way, causing dispute which hopefully arrives in synthesis of minds, hence Jesus' prayer, "That all may be one". The parable of the Employer is also an intimation that even if finite humans would not be able to fathom the Mystery that brought them into being, all will be rewarded salvation once realization is followed by belief and angelic adoration upon the final revelation of the Truth when Jesus returns in His Human and Divine Glory.

Firstly, for a person to say that he will be amongst us till the end oftime maybe scoffed at having too much to drink when we all know mortality precludes such a possibility. But for Jesus to say this after all we have witnessed just proves the Omnipresence of God, that it is within the Power of God to be at all places, and at all times, known as the Immanence of the Creator within His Creation.

Secondly, The Inclusion of the Name of the Son in the Salvation of Nations through Baptism, as well as that of the Spirit, is the direct statement of the Equality of the Three Persons in the Holy Trinity, for Only God can save Man, not man save man, from Eternal Perdition brought about the Denial of God by Adam and Eve. The sacrament of Baptism is the first act of saving a person from original sin and bringing that person back into the Fold of God. God doesn't need help from the Son or the Holy Spirit in empowering Baptism, rather They Save jointly.

The Parable of the Employer, in which workers were paid the same wages at the end of the day despite of unequal amount of work and being hired at various times of the day is again the Mercy of Jesus knowing not all can intellectually handle the Idea of God becoming Man to Save Man from himself, an Ultimate Act of Love of Partaking in our own suffering and humanity by the Creator who "So Loved the World". Falling in love with someone is no different from this. Some will believe Jesus as God in the end of the world, some believed Him early in life, it makes no difference to the "Employer", Jesus as long as one chooses Him and not lucifer in the final battle.

My Lord and My God, May WE All BE ONe before You Come AGain in Glory!