The first time I set out to write in this blog, I remembered I was a tad unrealistic and off-tangent with what I was trying to express. I was asking questions no really wanted to ask or are afraid to answer. I tend to agree now that some questions are to be left unsaid.

Slow interaction with many great posters in the stream slowly formed my zigzagging thoughts into more relevant and coherent ones that become more focused on more pressing concerns. True human experiences, feelings, and aspirations now sobered my more artful, detached writing, changing me and making me a feeling human, although, I admit, this is a continuing struggle rather than a process. I admit to my weaknesses because I grew without anyone giving me strength. Except of course, my being with you is now giving me strength. Being with fellow adults, and the kinship I feel with you is invaluable.

A transformation took place, at the same time, many events in my life are unraveling and taking place, thrusting my full consciousness in the stark reality of life, making me feel weak, vulnerable, and needy. Before I questioned God, now I call on to my Creator to help me in my time of need and of others. I am proud to say, He did answer! I just hope that my faith is continuously sustained until the time comes, when worst comes to worst, I will remain steadfast in my love for God.

I thank you guys for making my stay in Blogstream a worthwhile endeavor, and I hope I still contribute well for you.

I dedicate this to you and to God, Our Loving Creator.

THANK YOU LORD

For the workers in the fields who fill my plate with nutritious food, Thank you Lord
For the doctors and nurses who tend to the sick and cure, Thank you Lord
For the sun and the rain and the air, Thank you Lord
For the forests, trees, plants, leaves, and flowers, Thank You Lord
For colors of the rainbow, Thank you Lord
For the inventors of today's technology, Thank You Lord
For our parents, friends, neighbors, and kind strangers, Thank you Lord
For our language, culture, ethics, courtesies, beliefs, Thank you Lord
For the stars in the sky, the constellations, and the deep dark space, Thank you LOrd
For the intimation of the partial knowledge of You, Thank You LOrd
For the organs, nerves, muscles, veins, arteries of my body, Thank you Lord
For my life and the life of others, Thank You Lord
For the mercy and comfort You give to the suffering, Thank You Lord
For my consciousness, awareness, and memory, Thank You Lord

I CAN NEVER THANK YOU ENOUGH, MY DEAR BEAUTIFUL LORD.

The Nicodemus Passage gave birth to this question, the oft-quoted conversation of the enlightened Pharisee with the Lord Jesus Christ. Jesus told Nicodemus, “Man can only be born of water and spirit.” I would like to dwell on these two words: water and spirit.

Great theologians have interpreted these words as the institution of Christian Baptism. I will not go to the realm of doctrine here as I will not in my future reflections. What I am trying to do is to find a connection between the Bible’s Words with my life and thinking, and hopefully, all this questioning will lead to many fruitful realizations, and a strengthening of my own faith, and I may add, of our brothers and sisters, since, I post this in my other blog, given the time.

This is a long jump, but bear with me. Faith is a leap, too. Water quenches thirst, so are we born again if we drink water? Water cleans. So, are we reborn by immersion in water? Our Lord is known to speak in profound statements such as, “Take and eat, this is My Body…” I view His ‘water’ as that which both quenches and purifies us. I ask you, what is it that a human person thirsts for which, when denied or neglected, puts that person astray? It is Love. We are reborn and cleansed not only when we love, BUT ALSO IN BEING LOVED. Every person wants to be loved. So when a person whom we expect to love us does not, it hurts a lot and it’s pretty hard to get a move on.

I understand and am considerate of person who are divorced or have unfortunately ended a relationship. Why does it happen? Because Love has not been reciprocated. Rebirth to being a better person, a brighter soul is stymied, put to great duress, slapped with a deeper, mind-numbing emotional, psychological, and spiritual pain. Thence come divorce and separation. But I have known people who lived through that. They found love in their children, their friends, their profession, and, upon hearing their cries, in direct intervention from God. The word order in Jesus’ words is uncanny also, ‘water’ comes before ‘spirit’. Love must be realized, before one’s ‘spirit’ can be raised higher, closer and closer to our Spiritual Father.

But who will love me? Where can I find a person or persons whom I can love and will love me in return, loving the good in me? Ah, but our Lord has an answer for that, “Seek, and you will find, knock, and the door will be opened…”

I have knocked on doors. Some have been slammed on my face, while others have let me in. I have been reborn so many times, and have fallen out of that rebirth many times too. Hence, the need for constant rebirth. Better that than none at all. And I know, you have been reborn and will still be, my faith on it.